Addict

"This won't hurt a bit"
you said
when I flinched at the sight
of the syringe
"Just enjoy the ride"
was your advice

White hot sting
shot through me
the rush hit my system
shocking me
into an hallucinogenic haze
of spinning lights
and
sugar sweet sweat

The taste of your music
slid over my tongue and skin
as I was dancing
a prayer to Hera
under the melting summer stars
dripping into my eyes
an endless stream of joy
laughter rippling up from nowhere
about nothing

And I could see rainbows in your eyes
like oily puddles of broken light
a kaleidoscopic swirl
watching the universe spin
faster and faster
leaving us behind
to meander with
unspoken words and undreamt dreams

Then the fall

Instantaneous decent
from riches to reality
left to wash the dirt
from my eyes and skin
never clean
never pure
ever blackened by
ancestry and guilt

I ran
to catch up with the universe
but found only
gray people with
gray eyes and
gray souls
no colour to revel in
or compare to your eyes
and the music
couldn't move me
and Hera wouldn't listen to my prayers
when I wasn't dancing

Your drug
still trickling through me
my mind screaming for colour and sound
my body screaming for a hit
though I tried to purge it from my system
all I wanted was
more

More rainbows
More music
More sweet pain

So I crawled back
on tainted hands and dirty knees
to feel the sting
of your liquid fire
flowing through me
time and time again